This is not a post on the power of names. I wish it were; it’s a favourite subject of mine. But I fear I do not have the words in my head for such a post. Not yet, anyway.
No, this post is a bit more mundane — but I hope y’all will be able to help me anyway.
I’m a writer. You probably know this, if you read this blog — you most likely know my name, as a writer and in my daily life, is Katje van Loon. (Well I still post from the account that lists me as Katje, so it should be obvious.)
However, the name I go by here — technically, at least — is Morag. Morag no-last-name because I’m trying to find one.
Katje van Loon writes fiction and poetry and blogs about her life as a writer and various issues she’s political about. She’s out as a pagan author, but she doesn’t talk about her paganism that much; mostly she just lets it come through in her books and poems.
Morag no-last-name currently blogs about being a pagan, and occasionally devotional poetry, and is thinking that someday she may want to write a non-fiction book about her little corner of pagandom. Morag wants to become one of those pagans that a lot of people read and maybe find inspiration from.
Delusions of grandeur? Maybe.
Regardless. Katje and Morag are the same person, and they are both okay with people knowing they’re the same person — but they don’t want to use the same names. They want the fiction and the non-fiction to be somewhat separate. The connection between the two won’t be hidden, just not blatantly exposed.
Morag Grayheart was my full name, but now I feel grayheart doesn’t fit anymore. It fit before, but it doesn’t fit the person I’m becoming. As a witch, priestess, [eventually] druid.
Morag stays, because I was instructed to take the name by my first patron, and I cannot imagine being anything else.
But Morag needs a last name. As much because she’d like to grab a new email for it and open up another WordPress account to shift this blog to as anything else.
So, without further rambling and pretentious windbaggery, here are some ideas I’ve been tossing around.
You may notice a pattern. You’ll probably figure out what it is if you have some understanding of Dutch [or German].
If you don’t, here are the translations:
Spin = spider.
Vergift = poison.
Heks = witch.
“But Morag, you’re terrified of spiders!”
Well, yes, that’s true. And it’s a fear I must get over. I think that a good way to do that is to become what I fear. To fuck my monsters instead of fighting them. To become Batman.
Also, I am a witch and I am going down the poison path. So I thought those might be good options too.
I’m leaning towards Spinvergift and Spinner, but I wanted to hear what y’all think first.