She doesn’t ask for perfection; She doesn’t expect it from mortals. But She does ask for an honest, consistent, effort.
Keeping the house clean is something I find very difficult. I have reasons for my mess: keeping the place a complete sty means no one can enter, and if no one can enter, then I’m safe. My mess acts as walls to keep people out, and for a long time I’ve needed those walls.
But my walls are dangerous to my health; my mess depresses me. So I go on cleaning binges: I bite off more than I can chew, make a bigger mess than there was when I started, and run out of spoons and go to bed feeling utterly defeated. I then ignore the mess until I get another urge for a cleaning binge. Lather, rinse, repeat.
I decided to try doing FlyLady’s program, at the suggestion of Hestia’s priestess. I’d tried it before, but instantly got turned off by the idea that I didn’t love myself because I didn’t shine my sink. Give me a break.
This time I’m ignoring the intense need to roll my eyes at that bit, and just doing the steps. I shined my sink last week before I left for the weekend. Today is Day 2 of the program, because I apparently needed 2 days to recover from school on Monday (it was exhausting).
And, you know, I did notice that shining my sink had a positive effect on my mood. I felt like yeah, I can do this. This is achievable for me.
Today, I get dressed to my shoes, shine my sink before bed, and put post-it notes with reminders in places where I’ll see them. (I’ll also probably clean a few other things, because the house is really messy, but I’m not going to let myself do a cleaning binge.) Tomorrow, I get dressed to my shoes, read my reminders, keep my sink shining, and start to explore the FlyLady website. Day 4 should be next Tuesday, when I’m back from the Island and hopefully have had a full night’s rest.