It is hard to love you now
Relationships with the gods and spirits are for many reasons. For gifts, for help, because you like them, because you share some element, some essence. Reciprocity. I give to the […]
gods and spirits: Manannan Mac Lir
Joy & Grief: figuring out my Samhain Advent
I completely dropped the ball on doing fire festival advents this year. In the wave of grief following the death of my friend and the death of my mentor, it […]
Imbolc 2017, Ritual Debrief
My Imbolc ritual wasn’t a full ritual, not like I did Loafmass last year. Hopefully at some point I’ll get it figured out enough to actually do rituals for the […]
Lantern of the Ancestors
Sermon in church yesterday was exactly what I needed. I was late, somehow, even though I made the decision to stay up later and make the 8:30 am service instead […]
The Samhain that Wasn’t
Following up on a successful, if belated, Loafmass, this year I wanted to have a good Samhain celebration. I tried to get to it by October 31st, but that didn’t […]
My Polytheism
I am sort of fried today. Didn’t sleep well, despite the CPAP; think I’ll have to lay off the coffee so late at night. I thought music would help me […]
A very belated Loafmass
Loafmass is supposed to be on August 2nd, making it parallel with Imbolc. Instead of focusing on any one of the Three, it’s a holiday for all of them. Loafmass […]
Fleeing Father’s Day
Father’s day is hard for me. I’ve been trying to reclaim it in Manannan’s name, as He is my Father now. Since I cut my bio-sire out of my life […]
What cannot be said will be wept
I feel as if I’ve spent an entire week crying; weeping out my anguish first for the betrayal of the mothers who once welcomed me, and today for the physical […]
Gender Agnosticism
There are very few things I know for sure. This is true in all areas of my life, but right now I want to talk about just a few. About […]
The Sacred Triad and the Wheel of the Year
Note: this post is written from the perspective of someone living in the Northern Hemisphere on the West Coast of North America. Also it is full of my headcanon about […]
I’m religious, not spiritual.
I used to be fond of the phrase “I’m spiritual, not religious.” It seemed like a good way to indicate that I was interested in spirituality, but not Christianity specifically. […]
What I learned this month (about hymn-writing, mostly)
Note: this post contains animated gifs. Setting out to write 30 hymns in 30 days didn’t feel like a super-ambitious goal, initially. I mean, it was a bit daunting, because […]
30 Days of Hymns, Day 9: hymn round-up and reflection on my progress
Let’s start with the reflection. It didn’t take long for me to fuck this up in some way. The first three days were great. I got up, got coffee, and […]
Imbolc and the 30 Days of Hymns project
Happy Imbolc, or Lughnasdh/Lammas if you’re in the Southern Hemisphere! I finished up Imbolc Advent last night before I went to sleep (so, 10:30am), and tonight I’ve got a few […]
World Suicide Prevention Day 2015
I don’t know. There was a big post I wanted to do about my Oma and my mom and my aunt and how suicide/suicidal ideation/suicide attempts runs in our family, […]
Places where the gods are NOT
So I was thinking about my wording in my post from the other day, about how my faith has helped me in difficult times: In my faith I’m well aware […]
30 Days of Paganism: Places of spiritual significance
There are two types of “place” that I’m going to talk about here. One is a general type of place. The other is a specific spot in the world that […]
30 Days of Paganism: Any “secular” pastimes with religious significance, and why
I do have some secular pastimes that have, over time, acquired religious significance. Knitting/Crochet For the longest time it was just a way for me to carry on family traditions, […]
30 Days of Paganism: Paganism and my family/friends
I’ve already talked about this a lot in my previous posts, but I’ll revisit it. I was raised pagan, basically, with a Buddhist mom who was friendly to more pagan-y […]
30 Days of Paganism: Community
I have reached a stage in my life where I am incredibly interested and concerned in/with building community. I’m getting married in a few months (terrifying); we’ll be having kids […]
30 Days of Paganism: My ways of worship
You are the hole in my head You are the space in my bed You are the silence in between What I thought and what I said You are the […]
30 Days of Paganism: The meaning of terms like “earth-based” and what they mean to this path
Ah, this old chestnut. The idea of pagan religions all being “earth-based” is actually a pretty persistent myth. As in, it’s not true, yet it’s the thing that comes up […]
30 Days of Paganism: On finding a pantheon
Honestly…I didn’t really set out to find a pantheon. Ok, well, I did. But those searches became dead ends. At first I thought I might go Hellenic, but then I […]
Jumping on the Deily Bandwagon
So I just joined the site Deily. It’s an offshoot of Patheos, which I have my issues with, but Deily isn’t really a blogging platform. It’s sort of a social […]